I have been thinking a lot about what being the MOM that I want to be means to me.
When I was a kid, I wanted to be the mom who baked cookies and always had fresh baked stuff around. I love to bake, but I seldom make time for it. I have been trying to bake something at least once a week. Two weeks ago, I made Brown Butter Chocolate Chip cookies. Last week, I made oatmeal cranberry squares, they were a huge hit.
I also want to LISTEN MORE and TALK LESS. That's not easy for me. I'm a talker. But I have been trying. There is something going on in our life that I have not really talked about on here, I am not sure how much I will talk about it, but it's been a struggle. Lots and lots of prayer and reflection and research and assessing and appointments. On the one hand, I am thankful that, in all honesty, this is not a big deal...it could be so, so, so, so, SO much worse. On the other hand, I just wish we didn't have to deal with this...but in the grand scheme of things it's minor compared to what other parents go through. The thing that has happened as a result of going through this is that I am listening more to my kids and that has lead to spending more quality time together; it's lead to my daughter coming to me and asking if I want to watch a movie with her or read with her. It's lead to her holding my hand again and leaning against me.
Sometimes God uses the hard stuff. It's like a wake up call. Like, WAKE UP, FOOL! You aren't paying attention so I had to do this to wake you up! That's how I am feeling now. Lots and lots of prayer and assessment and research has lead to a decision that is right for now. Maybe in the future something else will be right, but for now I am feeling confident about our decision and I am glad that it has lead to me really looking at my girls and the beautiful - inside & out - young women they are becoming.
When I was a kid, I wanted to be the mom who baked cookies and always had fresh baked stuff around. I love to bake, but I seldom make time for it. I have been trying to bake something at least once a week. Two weeks ago, I made Brown Butter Chocolate Chip cookies. Last week, I made oatmeal cranberry squares, they were a huge hit.
I also want to LISTEN MORE and TALK LESS. That's not easy for me. I'm a talker. But I have been trying. There is something going on in our life that I have not really talked about on here, I am not sure how much I will talk about it, but it's been a struggle. Lots and lots of prayer and reflection and research and assessing and appointments. On the one hand, I am thankful that, in all honesty, this is not a big deal...it could be so, so, so, so, SO much worse. On the other hand, I just wish we didn't have to deal with this...but in the grand scheme of things it's minor compared to what other parents go through. The thing that has happened as a result of going through this is that I am listening more to my kids and that has lead to spending more quality time together; it's lead to my daughter coming to me and asking if I want to watch a movie with her or read with her. It's lead to her holding my hand again and leaning against me.
Sometimes God uses the hard stuff. It's like a wake up call. Like, WAKE UP, FOOL! You aren't paying attention so I had to do this to wake you up! That's how I am feeling now. Lots and lots of prayer and assessment and research has lead to a decision that is right for now. Maybe in the future something else will be right, but for now I am feeling confident about our decision and I am glad that it has lead to me really looking at my girls and the beautiful - inside & out - young women they are becoming.
